God has been teaching me so much lately, I honestly feel like I am in a season of lots of growth and I am loving it. Going to Grace for youth group in high school was great, and I was able to learn a lot of foundational things for my faith. I was also blessed with many opportunities to serve and give back to the community. Since starting school up in Ames, I've been able to get connected with Cornerstone Church and The Salt Company and I absolutely love it up there. Every single sermon, Sunday morning or Thursday evening, seem to hit me and make me reevaluate where I am in life and things that I could change or work on. I have never connected so well to the worship, and I can't get enough of it. This past school year was a huge season of growth for me as well, and I love being able to look back and see all that God has done through and with me.
Looking at the past few weeks and just the few messages that I've been able to hear at Ethos- the college ministry at Grace- I've become consumed with the idea of discipleship and how to give back. I may not connect as well with Grace anymore as I did in the past, but the church is still my family and Cornerstone is too. I owe it to the family of God to give back what I have been taught. I have been feeling a little on the outside of things too recently, and a friend encouraged me to find a way to plug back in. He suggested that since I've been receiving so much information, I should find a way to pour that back into someone else. At first I was thinking that that wasn't the answer to my problems- I was feeling left out in my own social groups. Sometime around there, I heard a challenge from a friend, and it was that if we are followers of Christ and growing in Him, it is our biblical call to pour into others. We are called to be mentors and disciple-makers, as well as spread the good news of the Gospel. I think this fall I'm going to apply for Salt leadership, which will give me the opportunity to lead a group of girls in Bible study. I think I might also apply to be a Cyclone Aide, which is a student ambassador to current and incoming freshman. I really feel the call to leadership, and ever since I stopped being drum major I have felt something missing. I'm scared though, scared that I am not prepared enough or a good enough example for those around me.
God has been teaching me patience and trust in this time though, two things I've struggled with for a while. I've always been spontaneous with my decisions, an "act now, think later" kind of person which is definitely not what I'm called to be. James 1:19 says "...let every person be quick to hear and slow to speak..." This can be applied to conversations with others, and even waiting on God. I am learning to be be quick to listen for his voice and direction, and slow to make up my mind on big decisions.
I am ready to do God's work, and I hope that that doesn't sound vain. I should have always been ready, everyone who is a follower of Christ should always be ready to do His work and to say to God "Hey, I'm ready now!" is along the lines of telling God, the creator of the universe, what to do. That's not what I'm trying to say. I've had a hard heart; I have been trying to do everything my way, and by God's grace and work in me I am becoming malleable. I am finally ready to give Him my WHOLE heart, like I should have from the beginning.
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